It's true, its a never ending cycle.ow

G test tmr. why am i freaking out lol, maybe cause it's expensive and i don't want this to foreshadow my summer school course that i've been thinking about all year.

i totally need to sleep.

juts did a devo. wow, this is the word of God :

James 4:13-17 (New International Version, ©2011)

Boasting About Tomorrow

¹³ Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” ¹⁴ Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. ¹⁵ Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” ¹⁶ As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil. ¹⁷ If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.

two things..
1) i cannot boast about tmr which would also include the fact that i also can't say i'm going to fail this G test tmr so that I can feel better about it if I do pass.. nadaa.. why? cuase thats just me boasting about tmr.. if i do or do not pass. It's all in God's hands. so instead.. tmr.. If it is the Lords will. I will live, and do this, or that :)
2) if i don't do what i know i should do, its sin. - a big part of what i've learned this yr.. is that your effort into something is shown by it's results. especially being a student. i'm looking at .. my studies. My online course has started, but i havent budged. yet i also see Orgo classes starting next monday. I'm gonna fail if i dont do this, and i KNOW i should be studying. hence, i better study, cause this is the right thing to do, or else its true that i'm sinning. I'm a student for Christ and im studying for Him, so i must stick to this and do my best so Christ's work can be done, it's quite overwheming, but encouraging to know that yes, this is what i should do, so lets get on it. all that i've learned this yr is encouraging to wrk harder, so i hope i can do this!
I need God so much more, i haven't sought him enough, yet everytime i do, i get the greatest comfort,

so if tmr, the Lord wants me to pass it will happen, i will do this and that for Him. :) nbd! AJAAAAAA

Goodnight :D ill sleep tight~