In my bubble

my only fear was judgment, but why fear that, because it's inevitable... this is my bubble of struggles, love, life, hope, and dreams...

Thursday, April 28, 2011

I have alot I must learn from ..alot to improve on from things of the past.. reflect on this after this exam... hard to [ ] <-- science thing. :P haha

It's comforting to read the bible and pray. Its the only way... try it .... Dont loose hope..


on another note, studying FOR this exam is deadly. keep me awake and willing solely for you! <3 ~ Thanks God! i want to do well for you ><'' sry i found out so late that its worth so much * SIGH : ( !!



Wednesday, April 27, 2011

How a Christian life should look like

lets reiterate what i wrote in my last post about the fear of failure... i read "Crazy Love" this morning and it talked about how its not the fear of failure succeed the things of this world, it must be for things that matter to Christ. Which is true!... why am i studying? for God, because i must do my part so that God can do his!...
in all the things that i do, i must remind myself that these fears in all situations doesnt matter if its not Christ centered, then again, what does matter if Christ isnt in the centrE? ...

another thing that struck out to me.., it also talked about how as a Christian, if you dont swim, the river will take you downstream... and how you're on an escalator doing down, but your job is to turn around, and run up! ... and YES. ppl will be staring at you, complaining, you would be catching alot of negative attention.. it's only normal. Ppl will try to scold you to go the other way, and more... this is an analogy of how the Christian life is.. its utterly normal to be looked at, as different,...
you should be scared if you are just like all the others. really... how can you be light? There are so many verses in the bible that holds true these words of being different, so its undeniable, its more so understandable! ~


the word Sanctified itself :
Wikipedia defines it as
"The word sanctification (see -ification) refers to the act or process of making holy or setting apart (as special) and occurs five times in the Authorized Version of the New Testament (1 Corinthians 1:30, 1 Thessalonians 4:3,4, 2 Thessalonians 2:13, 1 Peter 1:2) translated from the Greek word αγιασμος (hagiasmos) "purification,"[1] which is from the root hagios (άγιος) which means holy or sacred.[2] The thing or process which is sanctified can be called a Sacrament."

To sanctify is literally “to set apart for special use or purpose,” figuratively “to make holy or sacred,” and etymologically from the Latin verb sanctificare which in turn is from sanctus “holy” and facere “to make.”

John 17:14-22

14I have given them your word and the world has hated them, for they are not of the world any more than I am of the world. 15My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. 16They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. 17Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth. 18As you sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world. 19For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified.

20"My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, 21that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one"

2 Corinthians 6:17

17 Therefore, come out from among unbelievers,
and separate yourselves from them, says the Lord.
Don’t touch their filthy things,
and I will welcome you.

1 John 2:15 Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

Romans 12:2 "Do not be confirmed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may know the good, acceptable and perfect will of God."

on another note. one of my favourite songs just popped up on my playlist... press
I Can Only Imagine :) played it for hrs on replay, helped me study.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

"I'm Not Ashamed of the Scandal." (Paul Washer)

This sermon I fell to my knees in tears and prayer... for like, the first time in my life, but it's also because i know i need you so much more,...these sermons make me want to push all limits to know God truly.... you've helped me rejoice again and again to know that the right decisions in my life have been made.. you comforted me and reassured me of my thoughts, such that about love and about my life atm.

Lord, I always run to you when im weak, when i'm broken, when i need help, when i need comfort from the utmost. May i never ever do that again.., - because i want to be running consistently to you ..24/7

I'm ashamed because I know as much as i like to believe that i have you on my mind all the time throughout the day, i know i dont have you at the forefront of my thoughts, my actions, I put you at the back seat until i need you, and how ashamed i feel knowing time and time again that you're the first i should run to, before my family, parents, friends, others.. i must kneel to you first and surrender my thoughts and hopes and in prayer be well...

Teach me continually, I fear to be a different person, but I want to be that different person for you, (we live as foreigners in this place....) To have you change me inside out requires my everything, and Yes i'm scared, i struggle to give you everything on a daily basis..but Dont give up on me God. I'm more than willing to wrk at this .. discipline me. shape me, fix me... take away one of the most dangerous thoughts satan has given me... the fear of failure, and the fear of judgement..

it's true, .. that if a saint, a disciple, a follower of God who seems spiteful, anxious, daring with the words they use when preaching the Gospel... shows how URGENT and important this msg is. How?...
if your child was on a train track and a train was approaching.. and yet you as a bystander whisper KINDLY to the parent.. "hehe.. hi, um sry.. theres a train approaching.. :) you might want to tell your child to get off... " ... would you as the parent rather you scream loud and concisely tell your child to just" GET OFF, THERES A train coming!"... which one would you appreciate more if you're childs life is at risk? .. even if your life is at risk !

Today was a good day... though i wasn't efficient in studying,..I was able to spend more time with Christ, and i knew i needed this time so studying was something i was willing to give up and wrk harder on a later date. my heart needed to be right with Christ, and now i'm def. encouraged. More Prayer. More Love. More God. My Desire...

Do your Devotions! :)

1 Peter 1

1 Peter, an apostle of Jesus Christ,

To God’s elect, exiles scattered throughout the provinces of Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Asia and Bithynia, 2 who have been chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through the sanctifying work of the Spirit, to be obedient to Jesus Christ and sprinkled with his blood:

Grace and peace be yours in abundance.

Praise to God for a Living Hope
3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8 Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

10 Concerning this salvation, the prophets, who spoke of the grace that was to come to you, searched intently and with the greatest care, 11 trying to find out the time and circumstances to which the Spirit of Christ in them was pointing when he predicted the sufferings of the Messiah and the glories that would follow. 12 It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves but you, when they spoke of the things that have now been told you by those who have preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. Even angels long to look into these things.

Be Holy
13 Therefore, with minds that are alert and fully sober, set your hope on the grace to be brought to you when Jesus Christ is revealed at his coming. 14 As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. 15 But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16 for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.”[a]

17 Since you call on a Father who judges each person’s work impartially, live out your time as foreigners here in reverent fear. 18 For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your ancestors, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. 20 He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake. 21 Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God.

22 Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for each other, love one another deeply, from the heart.[b] 23 For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. 24 For,

“All people are like grass,
and all their glory is like the flowers of the field;
the grass withers and the flowers fall,
25 but the word of the Lord endures forever.”[c]

And this is the word that was preached to you.

Monday, April 25, 2011

yup.. if so and so really wants you there, they'd ask you.,,, sooo no more..

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Your love is Everything

What a good song to wake up to right before my 9am exam :) ~wat a great song, Thank you Lord for making it so much easier than I thought it would be to have a night exam and a morning exam! Weldon all nighter for the first time in my 2nd yr of Uni ... accomplishment?.. SURE why not !

Lord i praise you as i wake up to loud people who've been talking loud all night as we try to sleep and study... i thank you still for the deep hour of sleep you've given me, this will be enough for the exam becuase it's what you've given me

I have alot to learn Lord.. teach me to love like you did, forgiving me and keeping no records of my wrongs. thats incredible..Thank you..

May I praise you as i write this exam :)~~ Thank you for your love, keeping me calm and no afraid, fully trusting you <3

When I am dry and thirsty Lord,
And I'm crying out for more,
I know I can trust in your love.
In the darkness in the night
When I'm starving for the light
I know I can trust in Your love

You keep no records of my sin,
and you don't remember all my shame.

Your love heals every disease
Your love fulfills my every need
Your love is everything to me
Your love is everything

I will not forget
I wont forget your promises
I will not forget
I wont forget your love.

I will not forget
I wont forget nothing is impossible
I will not forget
I wont forget your love.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Saturday, April 16, 2011


Theres gonna be so much change.. SO MUCH. im scared for the summer, i really am, but it needs to come..

can't wait to meet new people, strengthen relationships, go on this ADVENTURE in self i just relaly wanna dooooooo.

maybe i just want an adventure cause im sitting here 24/7 to study . maybe its that. either way, i know things will be very different in the summer.. fear reeps me.. but in God i will find peace and fellowship with ppl who are staying in london, God you MUST open my eyes and let me see that there is more because i know this, but i want it! ...


Tuesday, April 5, 2011


it's seriously such a good feeling to know that you're doing what you can to please God..
true peace in my heart.
God forgive me and fill me with you love, and may i honor you in all my thoughts, actions.

it is not by my own actions and thoughts that your will was done. It is by the Holy Spirit that it has been in my prayer I thank you Lord for the Holy Spirit! for its power and peace in place... i couldn't have asked for a more peaceful loving way to agree~

May our lives be filled with You.
We are truly blessed
Thank you our loving God, Our Savior
Speak oh Lord. so that my ears may hear your wish. for i WILL be obedient, but please let me know oh Lord. HELP.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

really good talk with the housemate today -- things to improve on :)
what am i doing here?...
bitterness consumes me because i don't know why im still in this... its so unfair and you have no idea how much im hurting... dont know how much longer i can do this ..

"take it easy Angie "
- ma-mee&ba-bee
their comfort today meant the world to me... to travel all the way down here to spend a couple of hrs with me.. <3 God Bless them with the world thank you so much for them, because they're the best parents ever--