In my bubble

my only fear was judgment, but why fear that, because it's inevitable... this is my bubble of struggles, love, life, hope, and dreams...

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Mark Central

I was walking right beside you, holding your hand as you showed your compassion on the Jews and Gentiles alike. You bring me to tears because of your perfection and love. I cannot comprehend and words cannot describe how I feel about you. I love you Jesus and every morning you are beside me, with your arms opened for me to hug you as I wish! <3 br="" nbsp="">
You are the most romantic of all. You display stars to me in the darkness. You reveal stillness and quietness in the early mornings as your creation is reflected like a mirror against the lake. Oh how great you are and how much you love me!

Thank you for restoring my soul this week Jesus. How do I repay You? How do I love you? I need to give my all to you. I ask only for the Spirit to guide my every thought. Not the things of this world, oh how distracting it is from your truth. Bring me closer to you again.

It is amazing how each word in the bible represents something, each number is a secret code of understanding! Oh how beautiful you crafted the Bible. I cannot comprehend. There are so many secrets to dig up, and i'll never find them all but i'm excited to see what can be revealed to me.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Last month of University

and just like that, i'm experiencing all my "lasts"... this too blows like the wind... 
soon i'll be experiencing many "firsts"... I can't wait to see where the Lord is going to bring me. I have not a worry in the world when i look upon the cross. I trust His ways and I must remind myself to fear Him alone and not men. What little faith we often have towards God. He deserves to use us in all the ways that he wants, but this can only being when we choose to put our own desires down daily. 

New chapter. the most significant years of my life will be in the next 10 years. :) but ofc a life time into eternity serving the Lord. I just pray that I am obedient to His calling.. 

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Gut wrenching

I have this sudden disgust in my gut. Its not from what I ate or the bloody diseases I see on Josiah's  Med school notes (he's studying in front of me and those diagrams are quite disgusting). This disgust in from an inner corruption. A gut wrenching stomach curling emotion within me. Somehow at this moment, everything that I see and hear makes me sick. The lyrics I'm hearing through youtube, the ads on the side, the things that my Christian friends say. Though majority good, there is its corrupted moments for we are all sinners. We all fall short of the glory of God, and in this moment, its oh so sensitive. (rom 3:23)

Everything in this world marks sin. Im hit by an overwhelming epiphany again....of how corrupted this world is.  Its not the first time Ive felt this way but its making me sick to the core of my stomach.

This must be just a taste of what God feels about sin. Disgust. Hate. Anger. Wrath.

He is Just. so just.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Happy Birthday Dad

Its my dad's birthday today. Txted him last night (incase he was sleeping) and called him today. I am so thankful for him... it gets me thinking about the days we laugh together, the day we pig out together ( bc my mom would never let me do this haha..) the days we talk, share and cry together. 

It gets me into tears all the time. As I wrote my passage of thanks to my dad on my tumblr, I was balling my eyes out thinking about the past and thinking about the future. One part I didn't add there but I wanted to add was the fact that theres more to come where my dad will see me graduate, walk me down the aisle, see me have kids, and see them grow up. 

I believe one of the most significant events that is bitter sweet is the moment you walk me down the aisle. The moment you choose to give my all to another man. The moment you give my hand over to his. That moment. The significance of it means so much to me! I cannot begin to fully understand how it would feel like. But I do know that when that time comes, its time. :) We both would know the next season of life is here and God has prepared a great plan for me. 

Its scary to know that I will be going where my future husband goes. This means that I can be leaving to another country, or half way around the world away from my father thats taken care of me all his life..the one that i've been with all my life. Where God calls him, I will go. 

Now that i've seen Phoebe and soon Bonnie walk down that aisle with you, it's the most bittersweet moment that I know we will ever experience. I seek to honour you and serve you until God calls me into marriage. Even then, know that I will still take care of you, I will go to you when you need me. I love you Dad.
All I have to say is... i'm sorry..

Sunday, December 9, 2012


Discipline. You just have to start. Why is it that its like i've never heard these lessons before. Mind over Matter. Its easier said than done, but what if I used the power of prayer. What if I choose not to use it because i know if i do i will end up doing it. sad reality. So, the question is, how bad do you want it ?

recently i've found my two beast ladies that I can workout with. Renee my koin leader and Justina the cheerleader :) They are so beast, it makes me feel really bad to falling back since first yr where I was alot leaner and stronger.. lol but this is the motivation to get back into things! :) I have them and their encouragements to keep working harder at building endurance. Its a healthy way of thinking and living and im excited. I just hope that I don't get discouraged because they are so beast and I cant keep up :( nonetheless they are such blessings!! I want to run the good race with them! :) Hajah!!! motivation :D

Rejoice Rejoice! :) Thank You Jesus!

As I finish one exam after another, the peace of God never fails to transcend over me! (Phil 4:7) :) Thank you Jesus for your love and your care for me. My continual prayer is to be more intimate with You so that I can hear You and find You in the midst of every situation. Your power and works are unquestionable.

I've never been the one to question You because I truly believe You allow all things to be done for Your glory and so I will always REJOICE because you want me to! Rejoice always (1 Thessalonians 5:16- also probably the second shortest verse in the bible after "Jesus wept" John 11:35 :D ) so whatever fates me in the future I will Rejoice in You Jesus!

Use my life. Help me continue to understand Your death for me. I long to understand to the best of my abilities so that I can really live out what this means and as a product influence others by this understanding of what You've done.

All smiles :) One more week to go! I PRESS ON.