In my bubble

my only fear was judgment, but why fear that, because it's inevitable... this is my bubble of struggles, love, life, hope, and dreams...

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


Nothing beats a child's laughter...

I had the privilege to teach kids at Bridle Grove Day camp dance today...
It's my second yr back, and each time, you just feel so good, the kids are wonderful, so cute and you can't help but just hug them and snuggle them up!!
We all have camp names to hide our real names... mine is none other than " PANDA" :)
I'm extremely surprised and i feel so special cause many of them rmb who i am, they even asked "when is Panda coming back?" says my best friend who works there..

In every child you see a reflection of God's love... its amazing :) !

Heh. when i changed after i taught they dance, there was a little daycare child trying to poo in the washroom and ofcourse it was an open stall.. she was ADORABLE. i tell ya, she was muttering alot of nonsense like random noises and when her teacher was waiting on her and asking if she's done, HER CUTE LIL VOICE said " almostt ^^''" ... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ... i fell in love... yes, i fell in love with a child pooping on a toilet..... oh boy... haha i loved em' all

:D lets that some pictures tmr with them kids.

Not to mention ,jason yung thinks this baby's laughter reminds him of mine... HAH.. realy? ya think so?

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

CHANGE :) i`m ready.

It's crazy how God speaks.
It's ridiculous how hard my heart can get... filled with callouses.

How easy it is, to blame someone else for the struggles that you've had control of all your life.
Stop the arrogance. Face yourself, and take a good look in the mirror,... it doesn't hurt to sit in silence and hear God speak... He forgives every sin, no matter how bad you think it is.

“Forgive the rebellious sins of my youth; look instead through the eyes of your unfailing love, for you are merciful, O LORD . . . For the honor of your name, O LORD, forgive my many, many sins . . . Feel my pain and see my trouble. Forgive all my sins” (Psalm 25:7, 11, 18).

"‘Come now, let us argue this out,’ says the LORD. ‘No matter how deep the stain of your sins, I can remove it. I can make you as clean as freshly fallen snow. Even if you are stained as red as crimson, I can make you as white as wool’” (Isaiah 1:18).

“Peter replied, ‘Each of you must turn from your sins and turn to God, and be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. Then you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit’” (Acts 2:37-38).

"Oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sins are put out of sight. Yes, what joy for those whose sin is no longer counted against them by the Lord" (Romans 4:7-8).

take me on, Im ready for this challenge. i believe in change. and that it does not only happen once, and its done with, but i believe you keep changing, there are chapters. and i`m ready, for another chapter of change. :) ... i must be renewed.

bring it. let`s become the person you`ve always had me in visioned to be, no matter how tough, how much i need to sacrifice, help me. help me STRETCH beyond my limits and believe, give me FAIITH!

-- change .
inside ...... out.

Thank you for your grace and mercy oh Lord. I havent thanked you NEARLY enough for all the things you've done, and still doing in my life ! from your guidance to your blessings of love the peace, care, love that you surround me with.
give me strength to fight temptation and change me.
help me represent you well. that's all that i ask.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Take every chance you have to build thicker skin, suck it up, and move on. Be secure in who you are, what you know. You wont survive in this unfair world without thick skin.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

"Quality begins on the inside... and then works its way out." -Bob Moawad

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Every choice you make, makes you.

It hit me.

I've got this big problem, with people who don't let others themselves and let them do what they want, and no i'm not rooting for things that are unjust,... but i mean things that simply let ppl be who they want to be, the freedom that we're suppose to have...

... i hate it [yes i used HATE] i hate it when ppl have a problem with others.. about the smallest things.. why cant they let them be, its a way of them discovering more about themselves...
all your comments don't benefit anybody, say only things that will benefit the other person, not harm them.

i dont know what else to do but shrug a comment off when others tell me what someone else just did.. in my mind, all i'm thinking is.. " whatever, no big deal.. who cares.."
[sharing this might scare some of you... you might be thinking.. welll i'm not ever sharing anything with you again.. but its not a bad thing.. i mean, it would only cause gossip, and a bad impression for someone else. which is not in my interest because I want to know ppl myself, not from the words that i hear from others... this was another thought that's floated on my mind for all my life..] got me a lil side tracked.. back to the first issue..

you may think its worse that they're saying it behind someone's back, but what's worse, however.. probably more beneficial to the victim (only because they learn to thicken their skin) is when you say it, ohhh so loud to the victim so that the whole world can witness their embarrassment... i mean.. why do ppl do that?.. to lift themselves higher and lower the other person?.. is it because you're threatened by them?...

and no, i don't want to be influenced by that, this is a reminder to myself to be stay noble, and to keep on sparing other people unnecessary embarrassment. DO / SAY things that only do well for others..

stay true to yourself.

i truly believe and stand by this verse :
" Don't use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them" - Ephesians 4: 29

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Can you believe how much events can happen in the summer, in two months.. TOO much..
makes me broke being jobless..funny thoughtt considering i just had a dream that sobey's hired me to do night shifts, too happy... but reality strikes when you wake up and you're still unemployeed.

but thats not the reall reason why im SIGHing..
so maybe this is another "phase" but .. not really.. its becuase i really do miss you. >_>''
all these events. from multiple, multiple birthday's, Canada day, night market x2, World cup, more birthdays, and all these parties that are coming up.... i want you there .. really wished you were there..and really wish you WILL be there.. but i know that's not possible..

i just hope all goes well, but those drinking parties, and stuff, i dont and wont drink alot, but then again it doesnt take much for me ... right ? ... esp that white boy's party coming up, im scared for that.. really...hah the games they play that we asians dont even know about... the craziness. the trashness.. omgosh, kill mee.. i just hope everyhtings ok that day.... hah.. i have a genuine fear for this day .. but.. i WILL be ok. : )

there's just times like last night at Ron's party.. i saw this couple justt togetherr,.. and thenn ron and ceci, and im standing there talking to some strangers wishing that you could just, be there... *sigh... more whining and whalingg..

my feelings change time to time, i enjoy my independence :) i do, butt.. at the same time. how can i not miss something dear to my life, my heart.

come back, please. QUICKER, QUICKER,... i know it'll seem all too fast when you DO come back, but y i truely do enjoy that these 2 months ive been able to find security in myself which was good, and the independence that i have, and i know now i can still do that when youu're here, so all in all, it'll be a fast 22days. i PROMISE myself that. :]

but yes, this is my firstt blog dedicated to you whom i miss so dearly.
use your time wisely, go out, have fun, be merry, enjoy youth, WOO.

Monday, July 12, 2010


dont have enough guts to post my thoughts. get over it.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Night Market

day 1 of night market FRI
What better title can i use.. first WOOF LEGACY performance ever and we pretty much killed it in our prospective... there were the ugly parts but we say SCOORE on the good parts... i love this teams optimism for the biggest competition ever that we got into, its much needed especially because i truely have my doubts about placing or getting first ,but their so psyched about it all and dreams and visualizes them teaching out of the country etc. ,.. i think we have a long way to goo realistically, our skills and such , but heck, it doesn't hurt to dream out loud ;]

you know what made my day... when Hansen stepped up for me and indirectly protected me..from his freind trying to hit on me?.. well ofcourse for brians sake.. : ] felt the comforting protection. what a great freind he is :D you always need someone like that having your back ..:}}

going back to night market today to see the ppl that i love to see :] and will se more ppl. and line up longer lines just to eat SMELLY food,... though, on one hand... wish bparks was here... ill admit, i think you're the reason for my late nights, and early mornings without an alarm needed... ihateyou ><''..come bAck soon so that Amazing August will be ..Awesomee.. :T ________________________________________________________________________________ day 2 of night market SAT. i went this time not to perform but to see my freind's perform.... family time is great, and we went together but it was SO crowded that it was way too much, and since grandpa was theree.. they went to eat a nice dinner at a nicer place.. unfortunately i didnt go becuase i was going to watch my freinds perform..but was good for however long that was, ... ate some new things such as ... rice sausage.. [which was disgusting >_>''] no taste at all.. but the popcorn chicken thing made up for it.. i guess :P haha
+ nothing is better than refreshing bbt before watching in such a tight crowd.. man, vybe's got mad fans : ] they all knew who they were.. and their choreo for fx the team i use to be in, was sick, as usual, prettty awesome choreo.... i do miss these big moves and crazy cardio,.. this calls for me to make something with large moves and hard hits, noone else on WOOF legacy has that i dont think.. we all have our own styles :P which is sick, but i think its time for me to bring my style to the team filled with intricate moves : }

i saw so many ppl after my family left, after such a long day, i was for once, sick of such a large crowd. i ussually like areas with alot of ppl .. but nope. no more.. hence, after saying by to my boothers. such as hansen - who won me a monkey :D- and jeremy where i could ACTUALLY find.. since they were stuck in one spot.. (hahaH).. i left :D

monkey and my shopping for the day before night market ^^

Thursday, July 8, 2010



on another note,
oysters make you horny, apparently.

time to get my BUTT off this chair, get up and find a job, pray i find one today at danforth. who cares bout the commute, atleast i'm doing something with my life,.. meet new ppl, discount off foods, get out of the house, its SOMETHING :] can't be picky with my first jobs ppl.. labour is the way to go.