Those day's you swear you could explode in everyway. let me scream, let me cry, let me get out of this. give me the patience, the willingness to be bigger than this. to be bigger than her. I dont have to be, because You're gonna take care of it all, so just help me grow from ppl like this. Help me still love. how? i don't know. help
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I'm never gonna be like you, can anyone be less insensitive and unwilling to help, can anyone be so conceited?
you're old, yet so young.
im thoroughly disgusted.
I'm never gonna be like you.
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I dont' know how you did it Jesus, but teach me to keep loving ppl like this, i dont want to but i know i need to. You made me better than this, than to just stop loving, you made me to keep loving. be in me God. and show ppl what you can do. show me,
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Romans 12

A Living Sacrifice

¹ Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. ² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
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¹⁷ Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone.¹⁸ If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. ¹⁹ Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”^[d] says the Lord. ²⁰ On the contrary:

“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”^[e]

²¹ Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

God thank you for this time of quietness.. though i've had little progress in my work, this was more important, thank you,