update

so, i haven't been engaging my thoughts enough into the self changes i've put in my previous blog ...but also realized i know it takes more than a night to changee... soo freinds... please bare with me... i want to be better, give me patience for change..

also i've been on a role to read PROVERBs for the next 30 days! :)

i did this previously in my hs youth group as a leader, assisted by our pastor.. he said " i can really see a change when i see the youth do this, in 30 days there is a difference" ... and so im going to read it and do this again cause u can nvr read enough... :)

so im excited and ive done it for the past two days, past two chapters this time with my NLT study bible cuase my compact one is "sacrid"(jk) and cannot be touched no more cause its gonna fall apart!! LOL .. ya.. its broken. =[ boo boo'd ...
so i have a booklet with some of other notes that i write it in.. and its been great studying, like pure studying and meditating and praying.. its good and i hope that God really grants me wisdom,but i've also learned its something that takes strenuous work to seek wisdom! but bring it! :) cuase the knowledge will fill my with joy. (yes, i learned most of that this morning :P)

A Living Sacrifice to God

¹ And so, dear brothers and sisters,^{a]" style="line-height: 0.5em; font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">[a]} I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him.^{b]" style="line-height: 0.5em; font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">[b]} ² Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

³ Because of the privilege and authority^{c]" style="line-height: 0.5em; font-family: 'Charis SIL', charis, Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">[c]} God has given me, I give each of you this warning: Don’t think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us.<sup>d]">[d]

random: the line..dont think you are better than you really are is important... really, in allllll honesty.. im not very good at alot things, i know that many other are better than me ,but i would be lying if i didnt think that i was better in other aspects.. it's called pride, and this is one of the hardest sins for me and im sure for many others too... but its losing face, but thats only if you're prideful... without pride, and just being content and happy with the little knowledge you really know you wouldn't have to "loose face" and wisdom lets you be ok with this b/c you learn to learn from your mistakes and such to be better, there are many aspects that put me as a fool, so i want to change ... Pray for me please ... thanks :)</sup>

p.82 wait for me.
-for some friends friend of mine i pray for her

what does it take to love someone ? rule of thumbs for LIFE.

one thing that's oh so hard to work on,

This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you.
- John 15:12

how did God love us? He died for us. now, not everyone can die for each other everyday,
so on a more practical level...

If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ,
if any comfort form his love,
if any fellowship with the spirit,
if any tenderness and compassion,
then make my joy complete by being like-minded,
having the same love,
being one in spirit and purpose.
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus.

-Philippians 2:1-5

i made it colourful so it's not too hard to read, hope it worked :S , anyhow you're reading this cause God wanted you to read it, so finish it if you will, im just gonna tell you my struggles that are kinda personal, and i dont really like sharing, but... ya... i will

Don't be so concerned about making a good impression on meeting your own needs that you strain relationships in God's family. (...)

Remember, you can choose your attitude. You can approach life expecting to be served; or you can look for opportunity to serve others.(Bible verse of the month

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such important points from that devo page.. and much respect to those who are humble enough to do so, I must personally work on, not so much " sucking up" but really just being humble and know that i must think of myself LESS.. alot less !

that's it in a nutshell.
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lets start with this :
"Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires."
James 1:19-20
Active listening is perhaps the most important key to communicating with ppl!. It shows that you care, that you accept and respect them(the Daily word)
so important. many times really hard, but God has blessed me at times with a lack of words to reply to someone who's made me upset. yay! :) haha, but not all the time, so for the times i just wanna say something, i must be quiet :)

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"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."
Ephesians 4:29
A good reminder that if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything(The Daily word).

so true... so another rule of thumb. that i believe helps to stopping gossip also,.. to only say things that will BENEFIT others. not to say that mean words dont benefit, but mean words are only mean if you phrase it badly with a bad tone, so you just gotta learn to make those rude, mean words into a more respectful sentence, things that are hard to hear benefit ppl, this verse isnt tell you to consistently flatter ppl, but to really think if it will benefit them ( most of the time, gossiping DOESNT benefit ppl, hence. nono on my list..)

nts: try to shut your ears, or walk away when someone is bout to talk bout someone else.. i really do rather perfer to know a person by interacting and talking with them myself then to hear other ppl's interpretation of them.

Let God be your Foundation of Love.

God is the foundation of love. - me

so let God BE the foundation.
when your heart's confused, messed with, uncomfortable, curious and betrayed, played with... you really know you can't count on mere humans ... only God is capable of being your unbreakable, foundation of life and love.

if you rely on anyone to fulfill your heart, save yourself now.
God is ALWAYS there, not asleep, hands reached out in case you ever fall..
He's there when you need him most, when you're having a blast or OTL'ing like theres no tmr, when you feel helpless he can comfort your heart when you whisper " help"...

My God's amazing. If only everyone understood that this God is always there for you, not like a human, at all, you can't rely on ANYONE even if he/she is the most responsible, capable, loving person you know.. His love is soo hard to believe you gotta try to believe it....
Usually it take God to have something happen in your life so that you BREAK into pieces to understand that He's the only one that will ALWAYS be there.. let it be. May you be broken, shattered. The world sucks, and you'll soon find out

"when you care about someone a lot, over sensitivity is inevitable" - renee cheng aka my best freind... many times i wonder if i'm being too sensitive, but next time, if i ever seem overly sensitive, and im just quite. it's just me wanting some air... to breath. i'll be ok. i just want to bring my mind back to a normal sane person with common sense.

as for now, it's been great. God seriously drives me through everything ...all i need is Him. Keep me strong

lets not stir up anything now..

God, bless me only to the point where i am still willing to give it all up for you!... if i can't let go of all the things you've given me here on earth for you, even though i know it comes from you, you've blessed me too much!.. i only want enough to the point i can " handle" still giving it all up to follow you.

my daring prayer, i'm scared, but I want your ppl, your ppl to be saved so we can all be merry and rejoice :D ! Oh that day I can't wait for, keep me focused.

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ps. this song is so wonderful <3 it seriously would make me cry.

Temporary Home- Carrie Underwood

Give me the Faith You have to keep loving,

i'm NOT going to let life pass me by.

embrace it all, do what you can, dont let the ppl in life past you by, love them, give to them all you can, your time and attention when they need, the shoulder to cry on, i'll be there when anyone needs me, it's the least I can do for all the blessings God has given me.

this is your one life. time flies

why am i upset?
iduno what it is that hit me, it wasn't really hard, it was releaving? ...

"patience is better than pride."
- Ecclesiastes 7:8

As i fetal'd in my bed, and opened His word... You spoke.
just cause I think i can do it all or more without you, more for Him too, He thinks different. This was my assurance... i wish i don't have to wry bout the prayer i made...it was made so that I could let go and trust in God. But it's at the back of my mind... what if you didn't want it that way, maybe i am suppose to have some sort of responsibility in "this decision "too... yes i'm doubting my prayer, i can't take back a prayer, don't want to, but my walk continues and new things arise, it's just my spiritual walk moving forward...

as for now. let me obey. give me the patience to see your work in this, take my pride away.

new years resolution

more like continuous effort to be more thankful for the rest of my life...

1 John 3:18-19 (The Message)

When We Practice Real Love

^18-20My dear children, let's not just talk about love; let's practice real love. This is the only way we'll know we're living truly, living in God's reality. It's also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. For God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves

1 John 3:18-19 (New Living Translation)

¹⁸ Dear children, let’s not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions. ¹⁹ Our actions will show that we belong to the truth, so we will be confident when we stand before God

I see many blessing me in my life that I don't thank not only God enough, but my words and mainly actions just don't show enough,

i love everyone around me, I can never say it enough, how blessed i am with the freinds i have and the wonderful amazing people who surround me, who are all created by the One who created the the ends of the earth,,

Time to really learn to show my thanks and love, the love that so undeserving and yet is given to me from my God.

so my plan is to put some action to this, not only more in my daily life to be more polite and respectful and considerate for ppl, but also to write thank you letters,
and to do what God has given me love to do, BAKE <3 treats to ppl and stuffs :)

smiles, love,----

on a mission to spread more of God's love because He first loved me ~

Asian Idol Fail..

Yes, you heard it..

i have to blog this to remind me how fail i am... I totally slept through asian idol show last night because:
1) i set my alarm, but i didnt turn it on!
2) my jetlag made me like a big baby

i woke up for a second, at 11:04pm, totally whaled... cuase i just missed it .. ALLL .. >_>'

i wanted to see my freinds!! support them!! have fun with them!! .. instead.... i slepttt.. i guess i was REALLY tired. which i was. cuase im still wrking on the jetlag. but stilllll :'[[[[[

yup. my life.